Write to Heal

"100 days. 100 days you were gone. How's heaven, dek?" Seingat gue, belum pernah gue ngerasa kehilangan sedalam ini. Banyak kenangan. Banyak harapan. Banyak penyesalan. Untuk kesekian kalinya gue menulis bagaimana rasa kehilangan gue. Untuk kesekian kalinya gue akan bilang gue kangen banget. "I miss you, dek. Did you ever? After you were gone, I realized everytime is precious time." Ini tentang Aster. Sepupu yang beda umurnya 6 tahun lebih muda dari gue. Yang udah gue anggap seperti adik sendiri. I've spent my 6 years with her during my Univ's life in Bandung . Dia yang nemenin gue tiap malem, we did pillow talk almost everyday. Sometimes I hugged her before I slept. Dia suka kucing. That's why she loved Hello Kitty so much . Dia selalu nonton tivi persis di depan tivi, karena males pakai kacamata. Dia suka Choi Minho, salah satu member boyband Korea Shinee. Dia sering jajanin gue batagor atau seblak tiap pulang sekolah. Dia pertama...

I hate the moment When I wake up at midnight And your name comes out I play music Try to be calm and back to sleep But randomly it plays your song Your favorite song From your favorite singer What should I do in the moment like this? Call you? Text you? Why you always come? In the middle of night Without permission Come from the darkness Stop it. Please. Go away.